Friday, April 17, 2009

Sweet, sweet Samar


We have just returned from a wonderful, memorable holiday. And as lovely as this break was, I will never remember Nelson Bay without remembering my cousin Samar, four years my senior. You see, whilst we were away we learnt of Samar's death.

The last time I saw her was January 1991. At that time, her silky, chestnut-brown hair fell down to her slender waist, which was only just betraying an early second pregnancy. She was wearing an emerald green jumper she had recently, quietly, patiently knitted. I remember her proudly threading identically-coloured ribbon at the ruffled neckline she had created, her eighteen-months old son playing quietly at her feet. She had the demenour and quietness of a shy twelve year old girl, yet a tranquility, apparent in her person, was missing in her eyes.

And whilst I was away, on holiday, pleasurably spending time with my family, she was being taken away from hers. But in life she never knew joy. She never knew peace. Maybe in death she may at least know the latter. However, as a result of her death and her finally knowing peace, her loved ones will be deeply burdened by her loss.

Samar, your name, meaning beauty in darkness, was so apt, for you truely were beauty in your dark, uncertain world. Samar. Your name cannot be forgotten. Samar. From my heavy heart I can only offer you a rose in your loving memory. Samar, may you finally, eternally, rest in peace.

19 comments:

Anna said...

May she rest in peace. What beautiful words, thank you for putting an image of an angel I never knew,I shall always remember her when i see the colour emerald green, she will never be forgotten. Peace be upon her.

Mervat said...

I knew I had to write something, to maybe help me in some way. I am so glad that it helped you too. xxoo

Vicky said...

What a beautiful, loving and moving tribute. I am so sorry for your loss. Your words are so descriptive, you make me feel as though the loss is equally mine.

lakeviewer said...

Mervat, sorry for your loss.

Modest Mom said...

I'm so sorry.

notSupermum said...

I'm sorry to hear about Samar. Best wishes to you and your family.

Valerie said...

So sad, Mervat, may your cousin rest in peace. Sending my best wishes to you.

Mervat said...

Vicky: Thank you so much for your heartfelt sentiments. For me dealing with almost anything in life is easier if i write about it.
April 18, 2009 12:58 AM

lakeviewer: Thank you my friend.

Modest Mom: Thank you so much.

notSupermum: Thank you for you thoughts and wishes.

Valerie: Thank you so much for your comment and wishes.

Natalie said...

Sending you a big squeezie cuddle, Mervat. I pray that your cousin finds peace, and for your whole family too.

Ms Unreliable said...

So sorry to hear of your loss, I can only hope that you can all find peace in time.

Suko said...

Mervat, I am sorry about your loss. May your cousin rest in peace. This is a lovely tribute to Samar.

septembermom said...

I'm so sorry for you to lose such a precious person in your life. You beautifully honored her life in this moving tribute. Take care.

Lilly said...

I am sorry for the loss of Samar. Its a shock I am sure but I do believe she will be at peace and for that you can also take some comfort. You have honoured her with this beautifully written post. Thoughts are with you.

Bonjour Madame said...

I'm so sorry for your loss of Samar. Your tribute is beautiful. May she rest in peace.

Mervat said...

Natalie: Thank you for that much needed cuddle and for your prayers. xo

Ms Unreliable: Thank you so much for your kind words.

Suko: Thank you dear friend. Your condolences are so appreciated. xo

septembermom: Thank you so much. Your kind words are much appreciated. xo


Lilly: I know you have your own turmoil. Thank you for responding and for your heartfelt comments and thoughts. xo

Bonjour Madame: Thank you so much for your condolences to Samar.


You have all overwhelmed me with your kindness and love. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
xxoo

see you there! said...

What a beautifully written tribute to your cousin. My thoughts are with you and your family during this difficult time.

Darla

Mervat said...

Darla: Thank you so much for your concern and condolences. xo

Kayleigh said...

I am so sorry for your loss, you have my heartfelt sympathies.

What a beautiful and moving tribute you have written, so lovely, you have created a lasting memory of your cousin and shared her with all of us. She's an sweet echo in all our hearts now.

Blessings and comfort to you and all her loved ones.

lunarossa said...

So sorry about the loss of your dear cousin! Just remember that she will be always with you in spirit, in your heart, in your memories. We hurt when our dear ones pass away but they are free and blessed. Big hugs. Ciao. Antonella

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